There is one place that I am me. One place where I dont have to impress anyone. Only one place where I can take a break from the world. From reality. I lift the screen off my window, slide it under my bed. Twist the handle of my window until its open 45 degrees. I stradle the window and my barefeet come in contact with the stecco covered roof. I am free. I wrap my torn blanket around me and climb to the highest peak. No one can see me- but I can see everything. I climb and sit on my roof to take time to think, to get a new perspective. No one matters but me. My OWN thoughts and feelings are brought to the surface as I analyze everything that Im feeling.
People tell me how to feel and what to think when I am down on the ground. I am surrounded by people who think they run my life. My roof is the only place where I can shut all that out. I love the people I am surrounded by- but I need to love myself and be true to my own feelings. During the day I turn my feelings and thoghts away- because they dont matter. They dont matter because everything else seems far more important to everyone else.
People are people and none of them will ever truely understand you or anyone else. The only person in the entire world that you fully could understand is yourself. So when I am on top of the world my only goal is to try to figure myself out more and more. Because the more I know myself- the more other people dont matter. This blog is for me. Its not for anyone else- not for anyone else's thoughts. This blog is to help me literally climb to realization of myself and my life.
